My life, My thoughts.

I don’t know love you but I still like him… I’m so confused.. You’re always there for me. When you’re with family you could talk to me and call me but he can’t?! That’s bs..he can’t even accept me for who I am.. But you can.. I want to tell you how I feel but I don’t want to ruin our friendship..

I like you, but I think I’m forcing myself to love him… JUST CAUSE I PROMISED HIM A FOREVER… promises can kill you inside, and you just don’t know it. He treats me soooo much better. you don’t. you see? I love you just cause I’m forcing myself too… where’s that someone that I don’t have to force myself to love?

i accitentally called my bestfriend “babe”… 

I never seem to have those with babe… Instead of having late night conversations with my boyfriend, I have them with my GUY best friend. There’s nothing wrong with talking with your guy best friend, but its bad when you and your best friend seem like the better couple than your boyfriend…

you’re not all that fun to talk too.. Best Friend is better to talk to than you are… honestly he’s like a boyfriend number two.. BUT HE’S NOT. He’s my BEST FRIEND. You’re not as entertaining as he is.. When we use to talk it was all lively, now it’s like we don’t say anything.. whut happened? srsly.. I love you, I really do. I just want what we had… I miss you, I miss what we had.

All I want is the truth… But if you lie to me.. just at about the most simples things then.. idk… It’s like you dont have the courage to tell me things huh? well then… i dont know what to say.. I am just so disappointed in you. and dont go starting that ”I dont deserve you” shit and that your gonna make me feel all guilty for you thinking lying to me was OK. What else have you lied to me about? I FEEL LIKE WE’RE THE ONLY COUPLE THAT NEVER TALKS ON THE PHONE WITH THOSE LATE NIGHT CONVERSATIONS! fuck it.

I thought you said tumblr was just a way for people to get attention?! THEN WHY ARE YOU USING IT?!

Right now, it seems like a good thing because you dont really give me that much attention as much as your basketball, A.K.A your wife.

BITCH, I DONT TELL YOU HOW TO PLAY BASKETBALL AND PLAY XBOX.

Don’t tell me what to post and what not to post on something I love, TUMBLR.